I can't take it any more...

I've held this in for long enough...

Chris hasn't been paid since November 9, 2007...that's 8 weeks ago. EIGHT WEEKS!

We've been trying to live on my salary, which isn't that difficult, but it is getting harder and harder all the time. I don't have the money to pay my student loan bill, Chris's credit card bills or the heat and electricity. Why? Because I chose to pay the cell phone bill, my credit card bill, the rent and 2 of my three student loan bills.

NEB is a sham of a company! I've had serious doubts about them since they offered Chris a full time job based on a 5 minute phone call and no review of his experience. Who does that?!?! Chris loves his job, and I love that he loves his job, but at some point that becomes less important.

How does a company get away with not paying someone for 8 weeks! Not only have they not paid him, but they owe him $450 for a cell phone bill because Chris used his phone to broadcast games. Have we seen that, no...so essentially I've paid for those games to be broadcast.

He's filed complaints with the appropriate people, but that doesn't help me when I have to pay the bills. It's so bad that my parents (the ones with the massive hospital and pharmacy bills) floated me a loan so I could buy new tires for my car. My tires badly need to be replaced, but I just don't have the money to pay for them.

I didn't have money to buy any Christmas presents this year - the ones I did buy were a huge stretch and I shouldn't have purchased what I did anyway.

I can't handle this stress anymore...I'm afraid to check my bank balance, I'm terrified to check Chris' balance. I dread it when bills come in.

Chris spent thousands of dollars to go to a foreign country and rescue family, but does anyone in his family offer to help recover the expenses...no! They expect him to drop his life and fly home to deal with disasters as they happen. If we didn't have to still pay off that trip, things wouldn't be quite so bad. They'd still be tough, but better. His family expects us to spend $700 - $800 to fly to them for Christmas every other year, but do they come visit us? Nope...apparently they think we are made of money - newsflash - we are broke! We are scraping by on one income, and slowly drowning.

I digress...Holiday recap: Christmas with Mom and Dad was nice. One of the better family gatherings in recent history. It was a bummer that Hannah and Josh couldn't make it, we missed them, but she had to work. Hannah visited Chelsea on Wednesday, so at least some time was spent with her.

After several weeks of multiple inches of snow, we are in a bit of a January thaw. It's in the 40s today, which is a nice change of pace.

Here's to hoping 2008 is better than 2007, can't get much worse.